And you even said that the prominence was a fact lol.
Yeah, which is why I didn't try to make this topic about "Why my life sucks more than everyone's ever!", because it simply wouldn't be true. And that's part of the thing I hate about myself, is I always tend to be so self-absobed and ungrateful, even though I know there are so many that have it worse than I. This is something that I AM working on.
Possum, there is no human who doesnt do that.
When someones friend, or parents, or a relative die, they would care so much more than if a thousand people died that day in africa, or 20 people were shot in the USA ... In fact, they would even care at all!
I believe we are all hedonistic bastards on some level of sub conciousness, and i dont care.
To aknowledge such a component of yourself, and worry about it, makes you a better person in the eyes of the christian church than most people who avoid or are consciously ignorant such things.
hmm ... The way you describe yourself in your first post Possum, is like Faye on the comic Questionable Content! (Pushing people away by acting weird etc.)
I believe If someone sticks around with you for long enough, for whatever reason (It will happen at some point, through job, education or some server your frequent around), they would see through any irrational or invariant emotional bursts and accept and grow to care about you with time: It times of reasoning you could ensure this result, yeh?
If your pessimistic in the way that you seem, i can't see there being much difference if i was to reassure you to be more optimistic, however to attempt to be more optimistic, to take blind risks and hold on strong, despite any fears, and to try, can only improve any chances you have of overcoming the saddness you have in who you are, in the long run.
You think logically, but feel arbitrarily at times; Which you act on is something difficult to control - But you have years to age, and time to practice and grow into being able to control that. Unless you think so in your logical mind, how can you continue?
People here like you, and that is that.
We accept any occasional flutters you present, weep when you leave, and rejoice when you return.
That is you over long term, and you will find people to accept you in that way, in your local life. This of course, will also be something that requires time.
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